Best Day Ever

Today is the best day ever. I am marrying my best friend and the only person I would ever, truly want to spend the rest of my life with. She is everything to me; my soulmate and my love. We have been through a lot together and that only made us stronger as a whole. We have something amazing and wonderful. I have learned so much about what love, family and life is really all about and we keep growing each day as one. I am so grateful and happy that words will not even do it justice. I just wanted to put it out there with love. Today is the best day ever - I love you Maryellen, until the end of time and space... beyond any kind of infinity and measurement.

Be With Someone

Be with someone you can count on. Someone who doesn't make you wait. Someone who puts you ahead of everybody else and makes you a priority. Someone who loves you for who you are. Not just for your face, body or purely physical reasons. Yes, those are important, but only a detail when it comes to what really matters. Find someone who can be your rock. Someone who you can turn to in any situation and they will support you. Someone who you can call your best friend and mean it.  Be with someone who you can say, above all, that you love them completely. There is nothing better than that. 

Sometimes I'm Like a Child...

sometimes I'm like a child

and all the worlds a wonder

I like the color blue

and the sound of thunder 

sometimes life simple and

other times it's much harder

there isn't always a simple rhyme and reason 

for every emotion and every given season 

I can just sit and wonder while time keeps ticking

life is like a movie and it's definitely worth watching. 

love

love cares

love is patient

love is kindness

love is truth

love is living

love is you

love is real

love is here

love is everlasting

love is enduring

love is amazing

love is lifting

love is unstoppable

love is above all and beyond. 

Lucky

When we start out in life, we don't just go and immediately pick a person to spend the rest of our lives with. In fact, many of us pick and pick again. Its not about picking, but being, just be. There is something amazing about waking up next to a person who not only is your best friend, but your love, your life and your partner I crime. Lucky are the ones who know what I am talking about. 

Family

This is a subject I am still learning so much about. Family means so many different things to people. It could be the friends a person has chosen to surround themselves with or be by blood or even a combination of both. 

I had a skewed view regarding my family of origin. I feel like I never truly knew what a family was actually supposed tone or not, but I did not get the warm fuzzies from mine. Ever. You see, I learned how to call my relatives idiots for no apparent reason at all and instead of learning to forgive and stay in contact; I was shown the compete opposite. Now, it also about choices and I chose to believe what I learned for many years. I would be remiss to say that if I could go back and do things differently, I would. I have learned the true meaning of family: love. Unconditional and without any judgement at all. No filters and no bullshit. I cherish the people in my life who I consider famy. Period. Whether they are blood or not; I love you all with my heart. 

Instead

Instead of worrying about everything we can't control, just enjoy the moment you have right now. Instead of thinking about all of the things you so badly want, how about being grateful for what you already have. Yes, the simplest shift in thinking will open new doors, turn frowns to smiles and work wonders. Try it and see. 

Making Better Decisions

I want to learn a way of making better decisions. Learning from my mistakes is key, of course. 

Over the years, I have absolutely made some horrific decisions. Ones that will last me the rest of my life. Ones that have cut off my ties with my children and others that have been financially devastating. I'm not trying to be self-deprecating or beat myself up over past screw ups, but rather keep learning from them and pulling out the helpful tidbits and use them to avoid making the same bad decision next time. Sure, we all screw up from time to time, because we're human and I'm no better or worse than anybody else. 

I just want to learn a better way of making decisions, being smarter and more aware before I do anything and ultimately make the best decisions I can.