Mondays can be a little trying for many people. Myself included. Today started out a little slow; the rain was an uninvited guest. However, I was able to pull myself out of the funk and embrace the insanity of a new day. Changes all around me, but my changes are separate from what others are going through. I recently moved into my girlfriend's home in NJ. It's the 1st time I've lived w/ somebody in close to 3 years; since my last divorce.
This change is by more the most exciting one in a long time and I am very much looking forward to having a very happy life together! It is a truly happy home, but most importantly: it is a HOME, not just a house & that's huge!! Now, it's back to work for me...
Monday, February 28, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Transition...
I have been away from my blog for far too long. Having been reminded of this by my super-awesome girlfriend; what's the first thing I do? A new post, of course!! I own that action of not being an active blogger lately. Yes, I said girlfriend, who also is my best friend!!
Oh so much has happened in the last months, it may take more than just 1 post. Be that as it may, I am happy to report that life is good. Now, I did not say EASY, but there are so many wonderful things to talk about.
For now, I will say: "stay tuned", more to follow very soon.
Peace.
Oh so much has happened in the last months, it may take more than just 1 post. Be that as it may, I am happy to report that life is good. Now, I did not say EASY, but there are so many wonderful things to talk about.
For now, I will say: "stay tuned", more to follow very soon.
Peace.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Love... I'm no expert...
I am clearly not an expert on love. No more than anyone else, for that matter. That does not change the fact that my heart is probably too big for my body. We really can't choose who we love, that I do agree, but we can choose how we love, how we release the love that is inside of us. This not specifically a romantic type of love at all, even though it may people's 1st impression when reading this. We can not control who we love, but we can control how we love, how much, how deep & how often... yes, I am repeating myself a little, but it's my way of getting the point across.
Being in love gives us courage to put ourselves out there, but before we can love another - we MUST truly love ourselves. Otherwise, the love for another person is like using tin foil instead of stainless steel. Looks promising, but a person is really fooling themselves, if not selling themselves way short.
Was talking to an old friend from high school & these revelations hit me, so I wanted to share.
Being in love gives us courage to put ourselves out there, but before we can love another - we MUST truly love ourselves. Otherwise, the love for another person is like using tin foil instead of stainless steel. Looks promising, but a person is really fooling themselves, if not selling themselves way short.
Was talking to an old friend from high school & these revelations hit me, so I wanted to share.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Something beautiful I came across...
"You’re not the breath I breathe, just the sweet scent that I enjoy. You’re not the sights I see, just the most beautiful of them. You’re not the water I drink, just the flavor that makes it taste so good. You’re not the ground I walk on, just the partner I sometimes lean on. You’re not the blood in my veins, just what makes it burn so sweetly. You’re not my life, just the one I want to spend it with. You’re not my world, just the best thing in it."
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Why (7/23)
Why is it sometimes I feel like crying, but only want to be happy. Even I know it's ok to cry, it still feels bad before feeling good. Why does it hurt so badly in my heart? Tonight, I felt this & it made me want to cry again.
These questions are just rhetorical & have no real answers. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to do it differently. For today is for only one day.
These questions are just rhetorical & have no real answers. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to do it differently. For today is for only one day.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
What It Means To Be A Father…
6/16/10
“Dad, your guiding hand on my shoulder will remain with me forever.” ~Author Unknown
Being a father is more than a title; in fact it is far more than a short description. From the moment one becomes a father, there is a certain feeling, instinct and identity that comes with being one.
I have to say that my earliest memories when my 1st daughter, Samantha, was born. When it was time for her to be born, I told Dr. James that “I’m going to cut the cord!” to which he replied “of course, David”. So then it was time to do that & I took it in stride. Then, it was my turn to hold Samantha & I remember crying at the beauty of this little baby in my hands. The smile on my face could have stretched an entire city block. It was quite a magical moment and nothing else mattered at that time.
When Brittany (my 2nd) was born, it was still very special, but she needed some medical attention after, so it was a little less of a happy moment. This was due to trauma in her airway and they needed to keep her for about a week in the hospital. This at first was a difficult thing, but I stood strong and dealt with it. Every night, I would come to the hospital after work. The time finally came for her to come home, but we would undoubtedly end up back in a hospital by the end of that year.
This is where being a father means being strong and sensitive at the same time. Pulling from strength to get through the rough patches, because life is not always a smooth operation and with children there are so many more things to consider. As if that was not enough drama, my 1st marriage was also not a happy one and I had been carrying that fact with me all the time.
“A truly rich man is one whose children run into his arms when his hands are empty.” ~Author Unknown
Nothing is perfect, but we try to make the best of what we have – so I thought. It came to a point where I could no longer keep living this way. I had such a hard time thinking about how dissolving a marriage would affect the children. Finally, I came to decision that either way; it will not be an easy thing. The strained relationship with their mother did not help this fact at all, but that is not what my story is about.
“Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.” ~Author Unknown
After the dust settled, I was living back in the city again. Things changed and I got re-married. My 2nd wife had wanted a child. After my 1st marriage, I had a very strained relationship with my children, due to several issues – no other way to put it. It was fine with me, I love children and thought maybe having another beautiful baby would be good thing.
Well, the day my Chloe was born, it was truly exciting and that special feeling washed over me. I was all smiles and cut the cord (of course) after she was born. The feeling I had will never ever leave me, it is really not describable unless one has been there themselves. Holding her in my arms and looking down at her with so much love.
The bond that fathers form with their daughters is a lifetime one, I don’t know if this is the same with boys because I don’t have any.
“Fatherhood is pretending the present you love most is soap-on-a-rope.” ~Bill Cosby
There are so many experiences I have been through with my daughters and those are not replaceable. I try my best to be there for every concert, recital, event, etc… I do not want to miss a thing. Even though I have split my time up with the kids, I love them beyond the grasp of description and will always love them. Being a father has so many rewards, I could not even fathom comparing it to anything else.
"Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes." ~Gloria Naylor
David Kugelmas
“Dad, your guiding hand on my shoulder will remain with me forever.” ~Author Unknown
Being a father is more than a title; in fact it is far more than a short description. From the moment one becomes a father, there is a certain feeling, instinct and identity that comes with being one.
I have to say that my earliest memories when my 1st daughter, Samantha, was born. When it was time for her to be born, I told Dr. James that “I’m going to cut the cord!” to which he replied “of course, David”. So then it was time to do that & I took it in stride. Then, it was my turn to hold Samantha & I remember crying at the beauty of this little baby in my hands. The smile on my face could have stretched an entire city block. It was quite a magical moment and nothing else mattered at that time.
When Brittany (my 2nd) was born, it was still very special, but she needed some medical attention after, so it was a little less of a happy moment. This was due to trauma in her airway and they needed to keep her for about a week in the hospital. This at first was a difficult thing, but I stood strong and dealt with it. Every night, I would come to the hospital after work. The time finally came for her to come home, but we would undoubtedly end up back in a hospital by the end of that year.
This is where being a father means being strong and sensitive at the same time. Pulling from strength to get through the rough patches, because life is not always a smooth operation and with children there are so many more things to consider. As if that was not enough drama, my 1st marriage was also not a happy one and I had been carrying that fact with me all the time.
“A truly rich man is one whose children run into his arms when his hands are empty.” ~Author Unknown
Nothing is perfect, but we try to make the best of what we have – so I thought. It came to a point where I could no longer keep living this way. I had such a hard time thinking about how dissolving a marriage would affect the children. Finally, I came to decision that either way; it will not be an easy thing. The strained relationship with their mother did not help this fact at all, but that is not what my story is about.
“Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.” ~Author Unknown
After the dust settled, I was living back in the city again. Things changed and I got re-married. My 2nd wife had wanted a child. After my 1st marriage, I had a very strained relationship with my children, due to several issues – no other way to put it. It was fine with me, I love children and thought maybe having another beautiful baby would be good thing.
Well, the day my Chloe was born, it was truly exciting and that special feeling washed over me. I was all smiles and cut the cord (of course) after she was born. The feeling I had will never ever leave me, it is really not describable unless one has been there themselves. Holding her in my arms and looking down at her with so much love.
The bond that fathers form with their daughters is a lifetime one, I don’t know if this is the same with boys because I don’t have any.
“Fatherhood is pretending the present you love most is soap-on-a-rope.” ~Bill Cosby
There are so many experiences I have been through with my daughters and those are not replaceable. I try my best to be there for every concert, recital, event, etc… I do not want to miss a thing. Even though I have split my time up with the kids, I love them beyond the grasp of description and will always love them. Being a father has so many rewards, I could not even fathom comparing it to anything else.
"Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes." ~Gloria Naylor
David Kugelmas
Being A Father
"When one has not had a good father, one must create one."
Friedrich Nietzsche
"Any man can be a father,
but it takes a special person to be a dad."
Proverb
"To support mother and father, to cherish wife and child
and to have a simple livelihood; this is the good luck."
Buddha
"A truly rich man is one whose children run into his arms when his hands are empty."
Author Unknown
"One night a father overheard his son pray:
Dear God, Make me the kind of man my Daddy is.
Later that night, the Father prayed,
Dear God, Make me the kind of man my son wants me to be."
Author Unknown
"To a father growing old nothing is dearer than a daughter."
Euripides
Friedrich Nietzsche
"Any man can be a father,
but it takes a special person to be a dad."
Proverb
"To support mother and father, to cherish wife and child
and to have a simple livelihood; this is the good luck."
Buddha
"A truly rich man is one whose children run into his arms when his hands are empty."
Author Unknown
"One night a father overheard his son pray:
Dear God, Make me the kind of man my Daddy is.
Later that night, the Father prayed,
Dear God, Make me the kind of man my son wants me to be."
Author Unknown
"To a father growing old nothing is dearer than a daughter."
Euripides
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