It's really okay to not be okay. Not every single day will be our ideal; not a bad thing, but a fact of life. Sometimes, I need to stop and realize that in fact, I'm not okay in that moment. It takes me a few days to identify and admit it; but then I set about accepting this and moving forward.
I was thinking about my children a lot this week and all of the drama I have been through with them. Even though I have accepted things in my heart; does not mean it won't still hurt some days. The feelings are justified because they are real; this is not some ego-based nonsense. I digress: my heart is open and I have no secrets to reveal. Missing my role in my children's lives was not choice I wanted to make. That is, until my role was so diminished; I had to decide what would hurt me less and in the long run I know my decision was right. Still, I have a scar that will always be there and that is what it is. All I can do is live my life and be the best David I can be. Loving my family is unconditional and I am grateful that the people I surround myself with love me the same way; as I love them. As I have said; it's okay to not be okay sometimes. Today is a new day and I am not missing out on it. I am getting a little better by sharing and with each word that I type. Thanks for reading and listening. Happy to report that good things are always a constant in life!